Help. I want a relationship.?

This is difficult to admit. Usually on when posting this on a different website. I will expound on my past life, and explain how depression and social insecurity have plagued my existence from an ealy age. A lack of social contact leads to a lack of social contact. A pattern emerged where in my younger and more formative years I was focused more on not committing suicide that I was figuring out how to date or having sex. Essentially, thats what happened. When I left for university I burnt all of my bridges at home in the hopes for a better future in another state. I spent the first semester getting drunk with my fraternity. I had to leave the next semester due to dropping out of the fraternity; the story is complex. The old pattern of depression and isolation of high school repeated itself. To say that I hated the dorms would be an understatement. I succeed in moving out last year. Its a year that has been good to me; to say nothing of my anti-depressant prescription and yet. I am still a 23 year old who had never had a girlfriend and totally and utterly inexperienced at the arts of courtship or intimacy. I feel like I have to pack what should have been 10 years of learning into 1 year. Keeping in mind that in the dating marketplace I am horribly undervalued due to my inexperience. In essence: I realize that my life has been rather unusual for a scion of upper middle class parents who is attractive, well off, and (frankly, thank you books!) highly intelligent. I've coped by burying my past; all of it. While continuously not satisfied by my present conditions. Perhaps I have unrealistic expectations? Perhaps I don't have any idea what happiness, or normalcy, or satisfaction mean? But I want this, this simple one thing. I want a relationship. I deserve one. I want to kiss, fondle, love, stare into the eyes of another human being...the things that I deserve just as I deserve my scared dignity! But how?